ever since the start of the year..
nothing is pleasant.

so complicated.
hk replied her msg..?
hmm..
sometimes its diff to start a conversation with someone u hate.

whats the meaning of this!
everyone keeps everything from me!
i dun understand if lishan can know, why cant i know
i dun even have a sense of belonging.
damn fucking pissed.
everybody is in their own world*
do the clique even have a room for me.
im not being childish, but thats how fucking pissed i felt.
i tried my best to do whatever u wanted me to,
and wads the result?
NOTHING CHANGES.
READ READ!
JUST READ ALL U WAN!
READ AND KNOW HOW PISSED I AM AND COME TO ME A START A DAMN FRIENDSHIP WAR.
I HAD ENOUGH OF THOSE!
AND DIS IS CLEARLY FOR HOWARD:
I DUNOE WHERE DID I OFFEND U TILL ALL THE FRIENDSHIP IS GONE.
TOTALLY GONE!
I SERIOUSLY HOPE THE FRIENDSHIP CAN REGAIN SOMEDAY.

______________,,________________,,________________
*FOR THE FRIENDS OF MINE:
DUN DO THIS TO ME!
IT WAS MY FAULT AT FIRST
BUT HOW CAN THE FAULT STAY FOREVER WHEN I MADE EFFORTS TO CHANGE!



SOMETIMES I THINK I DUN DESERVE TO BE BLAMED FULLY.

I AM DAMN BLOODY PISSED.

now what.
its so complicated.
its good to stay isolated.
study is ur focus.
anything else are distractions.
YEA...! :wo shi rocka..!:

i really dunoe how to face those friends.
i wanted to talk and joke around.
but somehow..
each time i see those close friendship, i turn and walk away.
wads wrong? its just talking to them..
i just dunoe wad to do.
i wonder wad will happen when prom night comes.
or shud i jus runaway and not attend.