a change in the mind.
and, you will never know what.

gua beh mo du tai jiang dai gua gong mi..
di du gai la. zhe mo peng jiu bo ya ba la.
dong di au wu ga bei di. nang gang du o diao dong xi nang o. gang du bo o diao jiu heg nang hu jia bi, gong nang gai xiao wei. ok nang jiu di zhe jiang. hao lian ga bei di. du kiao nang pa, wo luei yit gai huei sui dua dua xio du ar!
xian na gang yi nang o bi gong gai o wei giao nang hia. dong pou gai lan pa guai guai la.pou dit jio hi la.
ga gi gai ji dou xiao gao toh dit cok nang di la yang bei pou sao. BO BAT SUN ar du zhe mo YAO JI!dong deh di du oi la. "oi la..dong oi la.."
pui di la teh!

ever since the start of the year..
nothing is pleasant.

so complicated.
hk replied her msg..?
hmm..
sometimes its diff to start a conversation with someone u hate.

whats the meaning of this!
everyone keeps everything from me!
i dun understand if lishan can know, why cant i know
i dun even have a sense of belonging.
damn fucking pissed.
everybody is in their own world*
do the clique even have a room for me.
im not being childish, but thats how fucking pissed i felt.
i tried my best to do whatever u wanted me to,
and wads the result?
NOTHING CHANGES.
READ READ!
JUST READ ALL U WAN!
READ AND KNOW HOW PISSED I AM AND COME TO ME A START A DAMN FRIENDSHIP WAR.
I HAD ENOUGH OF THOSE!
AND DIS IS CLEARLY FOR HOWARD:
I DUNOE WHERE DID I OFFEND U TILL ALL THE FRIENDSHIP IS GONE.
TOTALLY GONE!
I SERIOUSLY HOPE THE FRIENDSHIP CAN REGAIN SOMEDAY.

______________,,________________,,________________
*FOR THE FRIENDS OF MINE:
DUN DO THIS TO ME!
IT WAS MY FAULT AT FIRST
BUT HOW CAN THE FAULT STAY FOREVER WHEN I MADE EFFORTS TO CHANGE!



SOMETIMES I THINK I DUN DESERVE TO BE BLAMED FULLY.

I AM DAMN BLOODY PISSED.

now what.
its so complicated.
its good to stay isolated.
study is ur focus.
anything else are distractions.
YEA...! :wo shi rocka..!:

i really dunoe how to face those friends.
i wanted to talk and joke around.
but somehow..
each time i see those close friendship, i turn and walk away.
wads wrong? its just talking to them..
i just dunoe wad to do.
i wonder wad will happen when prom night comes.
or shud i jus runaway and not attend.